The Po Po are here!

---Well, I experienced a new side of college this weekend.  I can't deny the fact I had a blast. 
On Saturday night, after a day in the sun at the football game and working 5 hours all I wanted to do was go back to my apartment and crash. That was not an option for me.  Me and my roommates friends were throwing a "kegger" in their campus living apartment and I had no choice but to go over and check it out.  When I got there it was already packed. But as the night went on practically every football player and basketball player from uw (I felt very small and white haha) and a billion other people I didn't know were crammed inside this small living quarters. I'm not opposed to people drinking at all, but i'd rather be sober and aware of whats go on, so I just stood by and watched everyone make fools of themselves. By 11:30 or so a kid with a mohawk went bounding around the apartment yelling " the po po are here!!!" I have NEVER seen a place clear out as fast as I did that night. One of my friends left, then came back in saying that it was just a joke blah blah blah. I started laughing then turned around and saw a cop standing directly in front of me- only being separated by a window, then seconds later more cops filled the place, part of me was scared, but at the same time I thought it was kinda thrilling. After the cops came in me and the remaining people left. Me- "Ayana, i'll be back to grab my keys" Cop- "No you wont, don't come back" Okay bossy guts! I'm the sober one here.... 
Anyways, I ended up getting my keys and heading out. Drunk roommates in tow.
---About 2 hours later, I got a call from a friend to go pick his drunk butt up. Off I went. I took my roommates truck so I could put his bike in the bed. After picking him up, we're driving along and I see those "beautiful" red and blue lights flashing behind me. My stomach drops and I feel like fainting. "Hello miss, I pulled you over for swirving. Have you been drinking tonight?" "Um no." I guess I could of said more.. he then decided to test my words against me.. he had me follow his fingers back and forth for like 2 minutes (not really but it felt that long) I was FREAKED out, since my brother is a cop he likes to use those little tricks on me. One time I was again completely sober and he did the eye test on me and of course my eyes bounced anyways and I failed. So here I am taking the test thinking to myself i'm going to jail for being a good doubey. Thankfully I "passed" and was able to go on my way.
---Two too many encounters with cops for me... Thankfully I stuck to my guns and didn't drink.
Haha I thought it was a funny night, nights like that make me enjoy being a college kid..
Hopefully this weekend will be less eventful.

Moving on..

I have a very hard time letting things go, change isn't necessarily easy for me.  Right now especially :(
I am watching Nicks hockey game online, and I just can't wrap my mind around the fact that he lives in Canada now. I'm so proud of him, but it is hard to really believe he is up there.  It has only been a month since we last saw each other, and it seems like much much longer.  Hopefully he'll be getting the trade he wants, and I wont have to wait until Christmas to see him again. I miss having him play in Cody, Wyoming believe it or not... and watching this game right now makes me miss it even more.
I also really miss high school. All my other friends look at me like i'm crazy when I say that but it's true. I miss having my friends (true friends) around me all the time, going to play field hockey after school got out, and then going home to my loving family and spending the night at my house.  I miss being on a team, going to Friday night football games, lame/ innocent high school parties, being able to go home after all was said and done.  Maybe I am crazy, but so much of me misses that life I lived just 2 years ago.  I am honest, and don't mind saying that so far I have found college is  NOT for me.  I hate it. But I am doing my best to live it up while I can and do the best I can.  I hope change becomes an easier thing for me.
On a lighter note, my parents are coming up tomorrow :) We are all going to the Air Force vs. UW football game.  Although I doubt we'll win, it will still be fun to have them around. I love my family, I wish my brother was coming too.  And next weekend, I get to go home and do the Race for The Cure with my mom! God Bless everyone who has been affected by breast cancer.. I hope we find a cure soon, I am proud of myself for participating in this.
I just wrote a novel.. but I feel better writing my feelings out, even if nobody ever reads them. Yay blogging.

She said I think I'll go to Boston..

There is once in a lifetime

And there is once in a while

And the difference between the two

Is about a million miles..

Today has been a confusing day to say the least. I am only 19 years old and I feel like I am constantly thinking of my future. I guess in some ways that productive, but at the same time I think it consumes too much of my life.
Today especially I can't help but think where I should be going to school next year. Unlike all my friends there was never a college I REALLY wanted to go to.  So far it has been a "guess and check" experience. I like Wyoming and all but I don't think it is the college for me.  I want to transfer.  But going with that I worry that I'll fall way behind and that I once again will wind up in a situation I want out of.  
If I could go anywhere in the entire world, I would chose Boston, Massachusetts without a doubt.  I called my mom today and she said "life is too short to live with regrets." All my life I have wanted to live there, it's just a matter of time I like to think. Even if it doesn't work out I never want to look back at my life and regret never testing it out.  I'm looking at plane tickets to go out there and look at a couple schools, just in case.
I am becoming a very independent person, i've learned that there are few people I can rely on.  But with the help of my family, and boyfriend, and friends I know I can get through anything.  I hope that maybe this whole Boston thing does work out, it will give me a chance to live the life I feel like I've always wanted.
Until then, I'm going to focus on school and embracing the life i'm living right now.  
My current goal is: Making the Deans List this semester. Wish me luck!

First Things First...

So, I am new to this whole "blogging" thing, but I have read many blogs before and I wanted to give it a shot.  All my life I have enjoyed writing and I have done well at it, so I thought this might be a fun way to put my skills to use.

First things first, when I decided I wanted to write a blog I texted my brother right away asking for his opinion on what I should name it.  His response was great, "Urban Cowgirl".  It describes me perfectly! For the Urban part of the title... I was born and raised a city girl, I thrive off of the energy and experience of being in a city.  From Denver to Boston, Dallas, Chicago, and many more I just love being in the city. The people, buildings, history, and fun things to do there make the urban experiences very fulfilling.  For my first semester of college I attended a school in the middle of downtown Denver.  Although it didn't work out, I still loved the different things going around down there.  "You can take the girl out of the city, but you can't take the city out of the girl".  As for the Cowgirl part of my title, I am not actually a "cowgirl" but there isn't a better word to describe it.  I currently am attending the University of Wyoming in Laramie, WY. It has been a BIG change for sure, but I can't deny the fact I do love being up here. The people, the scenery, the atmosphere, and the things to do here are all so different from what I am used to.  Although i'm not always sure UW is the place for me, I have felt so blessed to be able to experience the things I have here.
Thats all I have for now, hopefully my title makes more sense :) I think this blogging thing is going to be good for me..